What started out as Boo-hoo ends up way-hay!

I haven't been keeping this as up to date as I would have liked recently because there have been so many changes happening. Changes I didn't foresee happening. This and that happened and I've found myself living in a small room in a shared flat in Neukoelln with two girls from New Zealand. The room is ok, it's bright and warm and has a bed and a desk and the two girls I'm sharing with are very friendly.

We've got the 2nd Liquidation party coming up on Thursday night and I so hope it goes well. I'm kind of relying on it going well if I'm honest! I don't know how much longer I can keep myself over here right now. I ran out of money a couple of weeks ago and when I say ran out, I really mean ran out! I've had fuck all for a over a week now! It's definitely the poorest I've ever been. I can't really moan too much though - I mean, it's obviously shit having no money at all and does your head in like but you can't be all boo-hoo when there are people in Japan who've just lost their entire family along with everything they own in one fell swoop.

Things have changed for me here and it's been and it's going to be tough. I don't know what's going to happen but I'm going to stay here for the time being and try and make a few good things happen.

I've just been given a job on a music video project that, providing I do a good job, will be a great start to the new chapter here. After that, I'll be doing the Liquidation nights (hopefully) every week and whilst all this is happening I'll be practising with the new band which, should things go to plan, be ready to gig by the start of summer time.

Sorry if that reads a bit wanky - I think I had to write it all out like that for my own benefit really!

Andy and Lucy came last week and it was so good to see them both. It was real nice to catch up with them properly as the last few times we'd seen each other it had been at parties or at gigs etc, so it was great to spend some time together doing pretty much none stop gabbing at each other. It was weird, when I was waiting with them for their bus to the airport to catch their flight home, I kind of forgot that they were going home. I think I was thinking that they were just going home as in home around the corner and they'll be back later or tomorrow or something and then when the bus did show up, I just said 'ta-ra' as if that was the case, and then realised that of course they were going back to Liverpool and I wouldn't see them again for ages and it made me dead sad.

Jules is coming on Wednesday though and then Graham is coming at the start of April. There're always people coming over to look forward to and in the mean time I've made some fairly decent mates over here too. It's just so easy to get bogged down in your own little world sometimes and over-think things far too much. You end up worrying and retreating instead of getting yourself involved in everything and making things happen.

I thought this blog was going to be dead morbid and depressing but as it's turned out it hasn't at all! I'm glad I wrote it now.

updated list of songs that I would probably call a favourite

Low - Over The Ocean
Elliot Smith - Waltz no.2 (xo)
The Flaming Lips - Do You Realize?
Elbow - Powder Blue
The Wedding Present - Spangle
Cinerama - Wow
Alton Ellis - I'm Still in love with you
LCD Soundsystem - Someone Great
Talking Heads - Pulled Up
Billy Bragg - Sexuality
Hefner - Hello Kitten
Pixies - My Velouria
Jeff Buckley - Last Goodbye
Radiohead - Black Star
Big STar - Thirteen
Weakerthans - Aside
Otis Redding - These Arms Of Mine